For the life of me, I just don’t understand why I can’t, understand.
What is it about humanity that makes people so, unpredictable?
It’s not that I don’t enjoy spontaneous situations, surprises, and overall randomness, but in a positive light. Lately, I’ve seen the best and the worst in people. I’ve seen the good, the bad, and the damn right “What the hell just happened?”
I’ve always tried to see the good in people my whole life. I have always imagined that somewhere inside of someone, there was some situation buried in there that no one knew about. Some prolific, profound event where their hair illuminated from above like a corny scene from the hit show, Touched by an Angel. Then you realize that it was just a shoddy clamp light fastened to a dirty steel ladder in some fake cardboard rendition of a hospital room that someone switched on.
The only thing that’s truly concrete about life is that no matter what you do for someone, or how you do it, it’s always going to be overshadowed by one thing. You will always be number two to someone else, no matter what. That is human nature. Survive, put yourself first, “Please place the mask over your own mouth before assisting others.” It’s everywhere you look.
I’m not saying I’ve lost my faith in everyone, in humanity. It isn’t the fuzziest feeling when you find yourself in that “WTF?!?” situation. That situation in which you almost have to pinch yourself to really believe that you are awake, not in a coma. However, I guess I shouldn’t make a broad generalization and say that everyone is like that, but they are. You never know when something will change in a person, when there is a chance for someone to get ahead, when your lives are on the line and they are holding the eraser. All the sudden the plan you had in your head, you know the one about how circumstances would evolve, well those retreat with their tails between their legs. In a line. Single file. Dancing in your face. Probably doing the Macarena. Maybe doing the Dougie if they’re really talented circumstances.
Really that leaves us to chase our tails essentially. My next thought bubble was going to be about how we can only truly rely on ourselves, blah, blah, blah. We can really only invest all of our trust in us, because we know at the end of the day we aren’t going to shank ourselves. Knowingly at least. That brought me back to a previous phrase, “Place the mask over your mouth, before assisting others”. That in itself would just have led you back to the point of this thought. Why am I, why are we unable to trust others. Because it’s the smartest route, and the most basic of instincts — work as a team, fight for yourself.
We all do it. I’m no better. We’ve all done things we’re not proud of, said things we shouldn’t have, but it’s our ability to forgive and forget that makes us truly unique. It’s also the ability to hold grudges that makes us a bunch of vapid queen bitches.
I should get out of the rabbit hole while I can.
xoxo The Daily Lube.